We had our transfer today for our FET #2. We had 2 frozens after our IVF in Jan, so if this doesn't work, we're back to a freshie IVF cycle.
But I'm feeling hopeful. I mean, I know our chances are low and I'm being realistic, but I thought - what do I have to lose by being optimistic? So, I am!
Counseling has also been great. Actually, last week was my low point and I think letting that all out (my counselor even gave me a hug at the end of our session because she thought I seemed so hopeless!) was really therapeutic. Ever since that day, I've felt more positive and hopeful about our options and moving forward...
I also made a nice connection today. Because I'm in HR, I've known about one of our India employees who is struggling with fertility, so I decided to finally reach out to her to let her know that someone understands, even if I am on the other side of the globe! (It helps that I met her last year in person when I went over there). We had the nicest exchange today. I always feel like I have to 'hide' this at work and it was nice to be able to share it with someone who just has the biggest heart!
I'm still not sure I understand why I'm having to experience this or what the lesson is in all of this that I couldn't learn some other way, but today was a good day.
And I get to test on Tues, July 3 (instead of waiting till Thurs, July 5)! Yay!
2 years ago
That's good that you are choosing to be optimistic! Hope the positive vibes will rub off and you will get a BFP in two weeks!!!
ReplyDeleteThat's great that you were able to reach out to a coworker. It's nice to be able to let other's, who are going through similiar situations, know that they are not alone.
As far as the lesson that is suppose to be learned through all of this? Sometimes, we don't know until way after the trial!!
Good luck!
So exciting! Holding hope for you that you'll soon be celebrating fantastic news.
ReplyDeleteIt is so nice & therapeutic to have someone who can relate in real life.
Wishing you so much luck with this transfer!
ReplyDeleteAnd my two cents (see, really not worth much!) on the lessons...don't try to look for them. Either they'll reveal themselves or they won't but looking for them is stressful. Just lean into it all.
So glad the counseling is helping. Going to counseling was the best thing I did in my infertility journey.
ReplyDeleteFingers crossed for this FET!!! I hope you get fabulous results next week!!!