Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Having a Scare

There was blood in the toilet last night. I started freaking out.

Then I called my best friend and started reading my book. It seems like some bleeding may be ok, especially if it's a lighter pink/red (which mine was)... what worried me was the bit sitting at the bottom of the toilet. I would understand if I were 'spotting' but some blood in the toilet? That seems more than spotting to me.

AND add to my worry that I feel like I'm just not supposed to be pregnant or it's not supposed to be this easy and I start thinking that maybe this wasn't supposed to happen for us after all.

I called my doc and they got me in this morning. He couldn't tell anything yet from the ultrasound - so said that it could be nothing but that it could also be an early miscarriage. They got bloodwork and will get the results tomorrow - let's hope my number has quadrupled since Friday - that will be a really good sign.

Ugh. I hate limbo-land.

7 comments:

  1. Oh sweetie, I will be thinking about you and saying a prayer that everything is ok. I hate that you have to experience that uneasy feeling.

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  3. I'm sorry you are going through this. The wait, even though it's just a day, must be excruciating! I'm thinking of you, and have high hopes that you'll have an AWESOME beta tomorrow.

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  4. Hope everything goes ok... praying for you girl:)

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  5. Hope everything continues to go well for you

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  6. Just found your blog through ICLW. I do hope that you have some good news and that you keep positive. IF really messes up our minds.

    Jem
    http://ambivalentwomb.blogspot.com/

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