Go figure that after I posted that my home test was negative last week, I was late. I tested again on Friday morning this time and was 'a little pregnant', meaning only faint line on the test.
Because of our history, I called my normal obgyn who had me come in for bloodwork Friday. I still don't have those results.
I spotted a bit both weekend days. It felt like every 4 hours or so, I was either up or down depending on whether there was spotting or absolutely nothing. This morning, more spotting than over the weekend. Called my doc again, they're going to call me back.
This is so nerve-wrecking. I hate this in between stuff. I hate the hopeful/reality yo-yo. It's driving me crazy.
As my husband said, 'even though we were taught in high school that there's no such thing as being a little pregnant, it sure does feel that way now'. Definitely.
So both good & bad... kinda small victory feeling we could do this on our own finally but I also won't rest easy (easier) till the 6 week mark. We have yet to ever hear a heartbeat and I just don't know if I can have much hope for this.
Please don't say 'congrats' or anything just yet. That's part of the reason I haven't said anything yet. I really do feel like this could slip at any moment. I just need support. I need to be more than 'a little pregnant' before the congrats can roll in... you know, the delicate balance.
2 years ago
I completely understand the desire not to be congratulated too early, I feel the same way. I have also never seen a heartbeat on ultrasound, and the only embryo we've ever seen is one in my tube.
ReplyDeleteHowever, I am happy to hear you have another... chance at this again and I hope you get some more clarifying information soon. Beta hell, waiting around to know what's going on... is the worst.
Many hugs to you, this is the toughest part.
Hugs to you during this time of uncertainty. We are here for you!
ReplyDeleteKeeping my fingers crossed for you during this wait. <3
ReplyDeleteIt's bugging me that you still don't have the results...what could possibly be taking so long? Waiting is nerve-wracking and best wishes!!!!
ReplyDeleteIt seems like I've read several of these surprise and very uncertain BFPs in my reader today. What a crazy world of limbo. I'm praying I'll get to say a real congrats in a few weeks!
ReplyDeletepraying you get a postive positve soon! Let us know!!
ReplyDeleteWhat a tough place to be in! Why don't you have your blood results yet? how strange. I hope they are in by the time you type this and that it's positive.
ReplyDeletekeeping my fingers crossed and sending lots of prayers your way!
ReplyDeleteUgh, oh my friend, I'm going crazy here with the unknown I can't imagine how you must be feeling! Thinking of you guys, sending lots of love, and hoping just maybe good news will be coming your way.
ReplyDeleteI hope by the time you read this you will have some definitive results, in the mean time I will be thinking of you and sending you good thoughts.
ReplyDeletehugs...
ReplyDeleteHmm. Interesting. I hope you get some answers soon. Limbo is hell.
ReplyDeleteSo glad I signed on to check on my favorite bloggers - I'll be praying for you! HUGS!
ReplyDeleteHang in there ! Don't forget to breathe and make a shrugging gesture with your shoulders, holding them for three seconds and then relax. It helps to "melt" tension. I would be as nervous as you are in your situation.
ReplyDeleteIn actually in this exact same spot right now. My beta on Thursday was 8. I go back Monday to see if it doubled, but in the mean time its torture. Ill be praying for you!
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