Every once in awhile he sends me emails to let me know he's praying for us. He's a pastor and will send bible verses that are helpful. He's such a blessing.
This week, he sent this:
I just finished reading my devotional this morning. As I was reading from Psalm 115, I came across verses 14 and 15 which reads, May the Lord give you children ---- you and your descendants! May you be blessed by the Lord, who made heaven and earth! (Today's English Version). As I read those two verses I prayed that God would hear your prayer for children. Also read Psalm 145 as these are words of praise to God by the Psalmist.
May you and B have a blessed day.
It just warmed my heart. To know he's praying for us. To know he thinks of us. And to be reaching out in such the perfect way. These emails have meant a lot to me. And I didn't realize how much until I got this one.
This is what I wrote back:
Thank you so much for your note. I really appreciate it. It's interesting that as we continue this struggle and challenge, how isolating it can feel, so your outreach and words mean a lot.
I've found a very supportive online community that has been tremendously helpful but the disappointment still continues and it's heart-breaking each and every time. Trying to stay positive and not let it be all-consuming too, though!
Stay warm this weekend!
Looking back at what I wrote, Im not sure I conveyed quite enough how much I appreciate him and that he's praying for us. I'll find a way.
I suspect he also really wants grandchildren :). Though he and my MIL have never put pressure on us, which is so nice. He's really B's stepfather but has been married to his mom for 20 years. He doesn't have children of his own, so maybe he understands this more than I think... and I also can't wait for us to bless him with grandchildren (however they come) because I know the role of grandfather will be different from what he's experienced as stepfather. I think the grandchildren will feel more 'his' than B and his sibling have (even though they have great relationships).
Setting the whole grandchildren thing aside, honestly, he's just such a good person at the core that I know he's genuinely praying for us, not him. And just his prayers, thoughts and outreach alone have meant the world to me. I'm truly blessed to have him in my life.